Don't Blink 2.0

I  have reached the point in my life where  I feel nothing but bleakness. Waking up  to screeching alarms and staring into the mirror at an estranged, deformed reflection. Silently trudging  amid the hustling crowd where no one would notice  I would be just the way I want to be. I breathe in meticulously not to make a single sound. I watch the world drift by brushing my skin. As I  remain still and solitary in this  ever moving world. P.S. Happy Birthday Ken, Happy Birthday cw.

Thoughts gathered over the week. (This post is completely irrelevant, I just keep getting an urge to update.) 1. The thing about people, is that they regret.  How many times have you said 'what the heck, fuck this' just to do something that you know isn't worth your time? Why regret when you could've actually done something to make sure things fall into the right place? When they didn't, you desperately search for excuses to cover up the mess you've made. You tell the world that you regret. Why regret, when you should know this is what you deserve? It's high time I start putting effort into my goals. Let others be my guide, my reminder that nothing comes free. Give and take. The more you give, the more you reap. Shuning, stay focused! 2. Trust is the most fragile thing ever. Some of us had to learn it the hard way. To have your heart smashed on the floor, shattered, and then you're expected to pick yourself up. I thought it was cruel t...

Swipe to unlock , I read in my head as my thumb strokes across the slightly scratched surface of the phone. Well placed right below the time display on my home screen, is a countdown widget. It was there since three weeks ago, when I realized how little time I have left until trials, and ever since my semester break ended I swore over a few times that I would put more effort into my work this semester. I would not disappoint myself and people who expect something of me. If I did it once, I can do it again. But look at me now. Procrastinating every minute, every second of the day; letting time go to waste. I couldn't hate myself any more right now. So this is it. I'm ending this because I'm done with slacking. Yes, I apologize to myself for the incompetence I displayed for the previous weeks and I shall be motivated once again. Trials are 53 days away. No time is to be wasted, this is an oath. Determination and discipline can work wonders.  Back to my regular ...

Now I know, all it takes for someone to leave is to completely trust them. It's okay, time will mend the gap. But how long, until I live again?

Unlike other years, 2013 went by a little too quickly. Everything happened unexceptionally fast, and now look, it's a brand new year already. I've been deprived of inspirations lately, so having no idea what to write, I'll just ramble and rant until something decent comes along. Recovering from the post-finals hustle and after the Sunway Lagoon trip I never really made an effort to elaborate, I began my first job ever. The first four months of the year were well spent exploring a mall I never really paid attention to and getting to know people of different ages. Learning was the fun part, especially from professionals who worked with me. Yet the best part of work was always break time with a lovely bunch of people, although we didn't really had a lot of food choices back then, there were definitely a lot of precious moments. Then came results. The following months were filled with college applications and interviews which I kind of enjoyed the experiences gained. An...

Still the four of us. Always the four of us.  From 2M, 3M, 4M, 5M to 6M; From drawing mazes to drawing comic strips and creating play scripts; From recorder ensemble regionals to becoming national champions; From birthday parties, barbecues, impromptu sleepovers to bars and Christmas' Eve in a club; From Penang Island, to Mainland and later to all around the world; From school mates, classmates, to an inseparable team.  Hard to believe it really has been 10 years, life would be very much different without them. Some things never change, some people never leave, some bonds never break. Thank you for the amazing memories.  P.S.  See you guys again in June. Can't wait. 

2 years ago. From Sheryl, Shuen, Cheeyi and David. If you guys are by any chance reading this, thank you, I love it. Feet dangling in turquoise blue And the late autumn chill comes sifting down Bites, nips at her ankles like little fish. She looks out to the sea, where all Are in their sluggish dreams, dripping with honey lethargy All but the lone seagull who Kept screeching like a blithering idiot Until, tired of the monotony, flies away And silence settles like a heavy blanket. Sunlight gathers in her lap Glittering shards of crystal The tingling warmth A silent companion for her eternal bliss.