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Thoughts gathered over the week. (This post is completely irrelevant, I just keep getting an urge to update.)

1. The thing about people, is that they regret. 
How many times have you said 'what the heck, fuck this' just to do something that you know isn't worth your time? Why regret when you could've actually done something to make sure things fall into the right place? When they didn't, you desperately search for excuses to cover up the mess you've made. You tell the world that you regret. Why regret, when you should know this is what you deserve?

It's high time I start putting effort into my goals. Let others be my guide, my reminder that nothing comes free. Give and take. The more you give, the more you reap. Shuning, stay focused!

2. Trust is the most fragile thing ever.
Some of us had to learn it the hard way. To have your heart smashed on the floor, shattered, and then you're expected to pick yourself up. I thought it was cruel to be treated that way, but I realize now, it made me grew. It made me immune to the next heartbreak, just like what a friend told me few years ago. 

The bad side of this is I really don't know who to trust anymore. There's always a veil that I have to put up, no matter who I'm with. I really wish I didn't have to do this, but being myself has become such a risk now.

3. Could it be?
Not many would understand my perspective of things. What I always think is a big deal, to others, is just a phase in life that we all would eventually get to. So who do I seek help from? I guess it's okay to let Fate decide. But oh please don't let history repeat. 

4. Running out of time.
I swear I'll not regret, I just can't. I can't afford to disappoint myself again. 

Note: This post isn't directed at you. Yes, you. But if the shoe fits, be my guest and wear it. (Edited 3/2/2014)

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