Of Bones and Blight

I'm okay.

I'm not stuck to my seat all day

cramming too much

irrelevant crap

into my collapsing cranium.

I'm okay.

my scapula does not hurt

from bearing

over my humerus

weights of fear and unprecedented woes.

There's a noose

around my neck
too close for comfort

and my body hangs by a single thread.

And yet,

my knees are still intact

my vertebrae straight as I stand

and my ribs aren't broken

although my lungs burn

bit by bit, with every passing second.

Still, I'm okay.

Because really,

I could be

feeling
a lot worse.

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