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The Milestone

We grow up and grow old, trudging through life and learning lessons as we do. Often, we fall and hit ourselves hard, and bruises would leave us questioning ourselves: Have I done this right? Is this the right choice to make? Should I move forward, or turn into another path? Questions like these never guarantee immediate or even right answers and we all know it well. Instead of staying down licking our wounds, we get up, leave our comfort zone to make way for fresh challenges, recreate and reinvent ourselves to fit into the new crowd.

It would be a tough transition, they say, and I could never deny it. From home to hostel, every emotional attachment you've had in the past surges back onto you after the first tedious night. You wake up in the morning after a long night of tossing in that unfamiliar bed just to realize nothing will be the same anymore. It could be the start of something amazing, but it just as well might be a pathway down to Hell. Nonetheless, these uncertainties - however ridiculously exaggerated they may sound - forces you to suck in your guts, muster up enough courage and march forward to whatever awaits. 

Self discipline is essential. It is only now that I realize how important it is to be able to manage my time well, to balance work and play amidst the hectic class schedules. And there's the ECAs you can't afford to skip because it affects our university application and whatnot. When you look around you, you realize everyone has the same amount of work and studies to juggle, but why does it come so easy to them? It makes you wonder how they spend their day. Could it be that not even a single minute goes to waste? There are times when I still wake up in the morning, cuddled a little longer in bed and thought, maybe I deserve a little break today? It's awfully easy to fall back into the typical procrastinating lifestyle of high school, but it's equally as easy to get rid of it. And it can only happen when we put our minds to it. So put off the thought, get out of bed, and start planning the day ahead. 

Heck, don't judge a book by it's cover. That's another thing I've learned. I know, we've all learned this lesson before, but now it's on a larger scale. All I can say is, never believe anything before you've actually experienced it yourself. It applies to everything. Don't act too fast before fully immersing yourself in the situation, or else embarrassment is what you'll get in return. 

Ever since I started college I have never felt the same - The adapting period, the mental block after the study hiatus, panicking over the choices made, worrying about puny issues I can't even recall now. The first week was downright hellish, mentally. But it all went away eventually, when new acquaintances are made and I gradually settle into the new environment. Right now I'm content with the life and routines I have, and all there's left to do is to make the best out of everyday.

Signing off, but not before a wise reminder: Those who strive will achieve!

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